Seal of Approval

I find myself on a sort of high right now. No! I am not under the influence of any kind. I just, I am just... pleased with myself, you can say. I know that is sort of odd to say, but nevertheless, it is true.

Now, I don't know if anyone is truly reading this blog or if they accidentally stumbled upon here and are about to log off. I don't know if anyone cares, but as of right now, I care. I care about what I write and about what I am about to write. I find the approval in myself and that is all I need. I think that is the most important thing.

At times we find ourselves caught up in trying to have others be pleased at our existence, but during the time of trying to make others happy, we find ourselves miserable. Why? Why should we put ourselves aside for other people. I am not talking about becoming selfish, just know that your happiness is just as important. Sometimes we forget that. Maybe we can have it all or maybe not, but we can try.

I started this blog as a way to blow off steam, as a way to be heard and change lives, as a way to be who I truly believe myself to be yet found it hard to be in the real world, (I guess you can say I find my inner thoughts to be easier to show through my writings) Of course I would love to touch more lives. I would love to get more views and have it actually make a difference. Just to know that my voice is important to someone would be wonderful, but the fact that I still continue to post despite actually having followers, I find it a win. Half of the battle was trying and I think I succeeded.

Love Always, (even if you haven't read my blog or decide to not to read further)

Release the Hounds and Negative Energy

I. Am. Done. I am sick and tired of being jealous and hating on people. And before you get all worked up, I am a nice person. I am. But there is always that one person that can get under your skin like nobody's business. They make it impossible for you to live. You want to take a brick to their face and smash it. You want to do a movie montage of your many attempts to ruin their life like in Mean Girls. It is crazy, but it is true. And if you are reading this right now and are shaking your head back and forth in a "no" position, you are lying to yourself. Seriously. But as of yet, I am through with it all.

This transformation or enlightenment or whatever you want to call it is not something that just happened suddenly. It was a walk up. Just like homework, I procrastinated. I could not miss out on the chance on bad mouthing that person whenever I found a new ally created out of pure annoyance of the person. Gossip is an evil mistress, but unfortunately to tempting to turn down.

Now though, with lent upon us, I feel the need to grow as a person. I feel the need to give up more than Netflix and chocolate for forty days. I really want to make a change. So that is what I am going to do. It won't be easy and I am aware of that but it must be done. And I know once it is done, I will be able to go on with my life much more happier than I was before. I truly believe I can do it because I don't think I can go on  otherwise. They are not worth my time and to be honest, I have so much more things that need to be done.

I will let you know how it goes.

Until then, its been interesting...

Happy Discounted Chocolate Day!

Flowers! Flowers everywhere. And no wonder why we have a national shortage of helium. Its all stuck in some cheesy balloon that says "Happy Valentines Day."  Ugh! How I hate that. Its a commercialized holiday invented by the greeting card company and corporate America. But, I don't hate it. Weird huh? I know. I actually like it. I know it is the one day a year that throws the fact that I am single in my face, but I don't mind. I am not a big flowers person, I am too old for stuffed animals, and I was not lying how I think that those balloons were cheesy. The only thing I like is the chocolate. And I really only go after them until the day after Valentine's day (discounted duh!). I guess I like what it represents. We live in a busy world. We are all stuck doing our own thing. But one day a year is set aside to show how love should be celebrated. Of course if it is true love it should be celebrated everyday not just once a year. And I am pretty sure Valentines day consists of more lust than love, but that may be just my cynic view.

Until Next Time...